#someone give me a dylan im begging

[perpetually-sad-but-its-fine]

11x09 of chicago fire

this recap is already scaring me

uh oh

empty bed

where’s kelly???

iS STELLA WEARING KELLY’S SHIRT???

oh god

is this another jay and hailey thing????

i can't do that again

i cannot

im not strong enough

im getting hailey and jay vibes

ahhhh

joe and chloe and javi!!!

the cruz family!!

joe and cruz are adorable and I love them to death

wait a minute

wait a goddamn minute

caITLIN CARVER???

yoU MEAN EMMA JACOBS???

WHY THE HELL IS SHE IN THIS EPISODE????

WHAT

i don't wanna google anything to see whether im correct or not bc of spoilers

but im rlly hoping im wrong

uh oh

herrman is coming at gallo

and im absolutely loving it

we love grumpy!dad!herrman

ritter and violet’s little smirk at ‘you must have made a big impact on her’ is peak dumbass besties

where is this even going??

is herrman going to punch gallo??

oh what

this went in a completely different direction

oh poor gallo

‘don't be an idiot gallo’

as if idiot isn’t his middle name

oh my god

this accident scene

how does a person even get there??

awww

stella and kelly being an absolute power couple

professional power couple

we love to see it

jesus christ

why is it when we need a civilian to help it’s always some bs about how they need someone’s approval

whY CANT YOU JUST HELP

ITS SOMEONE LIFE

bro who the hell is this worker???

WHERE IS YOUR COMPASSION

this scene is rlly cool tho

oh no the bIKE

THE BIKE

ITS GONNA FALL

I CAN FEEL IT

ITS FALLING

OH MY GOD

carver’s gonna lower the bridge isn't he?

oh hes gonna do it

oh damn

that door kick

um

excuse me sir??

that was unnecessarily sexy

how dare you

like???

HE DID A FULL TWIRL AND THEN KICKED THE DOOR

oh god

this bridge control thing is gonna become a problem isn't it??

why do i feel like carver’s gonna get kicked out of 51 bc of this??

damn that was intense

oh

gallo and herrman

‘dude, no’

‘i have to. my conciense is killing me. I mean, look at him, he’s such a decent man.’

*herrman snatching the newspaper from tony without a second thought*

iS HE RLLY GONNA DO THIS NOW????

oh thank you ritter

thank you for being the only one w/ common sense

‘wait until he’s in a very good mood.’

‘when is he ever in a good mood’

‘never. that’s my point.’

‘what the hell kinda advice is that?’

we love chaotic besties

they’re fantastic

the fact that boden has to specify that they shouldn't vote for themselves is just *chefs kiss*

OH OH

DYLAN AND SYLVIE AGAIN???

‘yeah well, at least youre not overthinking it.’

*sylvie cutely glaring*

uh oh

kidd and carver and boden

this is bc of the bridge thing isn't it

oH BULLSHIT

ABSOLUTE BULL

B U L L S H I T

good god

this is just great

fantastic

entitled little shit

uh oh kelly

god

please don't let this be another jay and hailey

please

im begging you

kelly please listen to your wife

please

just listen to her

thank you kelly

youre a great husband

thank you for listening

gallo ‘subtly’ advocating for herrman

SYLVIE FALLING FOR IT

PLEASE

ritter coming in like ‘seriously’

HE SAID IT TOO

‘seriously?’

‘im trying to make amends’

‘youre harassing voters’

‘it’s called campaigning’

‘it’s called electioneering, actually’

‘potato, po-tah-to’

‘no’

*whack*

kidd and carver could be besties

i could see it

‘or worse, lose your temper’

‘me? never.’

*motherly glare from stella*

THEY COULD BE BESTIES

‘we need you here.’

carver looking slightly abashed

‘...to make us all feel better about our drinking habits’

this interaction is GOLDEN

carver pointing out their development is fantastic

we love to see it

oh god

gallo

this again???

AHHHH

JOE AND JAVI AND CHLOE BECOMING A FAMILY

YESSS

ITS HAPPENING

THIS IS SO SWEET

oh god mood change

pryma

damn

bossy kelly

we love it

cOME ONE GALLO

GIVE IT A REST

BE MORE SUBLTE

‘herrman’s like a father to me’

‘since when?’

KYLIE

YOURE SO BEAUTIFUL

OH GOD

IAD

ITS JACOBS ISNT IY

ITS GONNA BE FUCKING JACOBS

OH MY FUCKIN GOD

I KNEW IT

FUCK OFF JACOBS

LEAVE

L E A V E

GET THE FUCK OUT

GOD I CANT HANDLE THIS

violet please do

please claw her eyes out

ill help you

K I L L  H E R

‘i got the feeling that she has a little baggage here’

‘oh, there's a whole luggage rack’

poor violet

they can't give heR A FUCKIN BREAK

god

poor carver

javi and joe

father-son duo to love and cherish

truly

‘a great sense of style’

he says this like he didn't buy a fuckin tracksuit in season eight for a party

‘style’

sure joe

sure

I LOVE THEM SO MUCH

omg

pryma and kelly

this'll be fun

oh god

how's this gonna go

kelly dont do something stupid

please

don't fuck this up

im begging you

‘my wife’

i get so happy hearing that

and then i hear the full sentence

and i scream

please let this go well

please

p l e a s e

P L E A S E

coME ON KELLY

KELLY

BE FUCKIN REASONABLE

P L E A S E

oh

this could be promising

oh damn kelly

fire cop coming out to play

we love to see it

gallo

please

youre overthinking this

tony and capp

a dynamic duo

they're great

damn ritter

youre in on it too

wow

carver

whatre you gonna do

don't do something idiotic

please

carver and kidd

such besties

god if they get rid of carver, ill riot

HES A GOOD CHARACTER

I LIKE HIM

DONT GET RID OF HIM

oh god

where's this going now

jacobs

fuck off

now

leave

oh thank god

wait

this is a catch

there has to be

there is not a snowball’s chance in hell

jacobs is doing them a favor

where's this gonna go

also

TWO?

WHAT WAS THE FIRST ONE?

CARVER

no

leave her

violet

punch her

claw her eyes out

do it

emma

i don't like you

i probably never will

leave

oooo

who is it????

AH

HERMANN

oh god

gallo

shut up

oh damn

miami of ohio

ritter’s face

its a meme

the best plot-twist ever

CRUZ FAMILY

ohhhh

hes wearing the suit!!!

STOP THIS IS SO CUTE

they're the greatest family ever

and little otis!!

can you tell that im getting emotional?

bc i am

JAVIER ALEJANDRO CRUZ

OH MY GODDD

THIS IS SO FUCKIN WHOLESOME

THEIR ENTIRE FAMILY

oh god

gallo

don't do this

not now

please don't

im begging you

‘I slept with your niece’

how eloquent

the best way to break the news

what's this now??

what's happening??

im now scared

pryma

MARTUCCI

GOOD GOD

THATS HOW THEY GET MARTUCCI????

BY SHOOTING BLINDLY??

good god

my hands are shaking

all of these ppl better leave the situation alive

istfg

whAT

ROCKET PROPELLED GRENADE???

WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK

ofc there’s no bomb squad

of course

why would there be??

oH MY GOD WAIT

CARVER’S GONNA DIE ISNT HE

PLEASE GOD NO

SOMETHINGS GONNA HAPPEN TO CARVER AND HES GONNA BE GONE FROM THE HOUSE

I CAN FEEL IT IN MY SOUL

I DONT WANT HIM TO LEAVE

ohhhh

kelly

worried!husband!kelly

my love

its okay

oh god pryma

this isn't gonna end well

of course all of the odds are against them

of course

KELLY

PLEASE DONT DO SOMETHING STUPID

my heart rate is unnaturally high

this is not good

im too nervous for this

WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED

TAKE COVER???

THAT HAPPENED SO FAST

CARVER???

STELLA???

ARE YOU FUCKIN KIDDING MEE

CARVER’S DEAD

I REALLY HOPE HE ISNT

BUT CHANCES ARE 

HE IS

NO

NO 

NOOO

NOOOOOOO

[silkgonerough]

Astrology Observation/rants? #1

❤️I’ve noticed that people who have venus unaspected in their chart are incredibly attractive idk why???

👸Moon trine/conjunct venus is such a nice placement to have in regards to people in general but especially to the opposite sex. I feel like ppl tend to treat you more gently and kindly bc of it’s feminine energy. It gives a prince/princess charm to the natives mannerisms bc they’re so kind and warm! Men with this placement are kind of babied and seen in higher regards by women (especially older women!!) and the women are kind of protected and nurtured through men. This also goes both ways where women with this placement probably have amazing relationships with other women and the guys are that one friend who has a lowkey bromance with all of his friends lol,, It’s rlly hard to see these ppl in a malefic or fearful light.

🙎‍♀️Moon in Scorpio females have eyes that can pierce through your soul

💆Men with Aquarius venus and Capricorn Mars are top tier

👄Women with Scorpio venus are usually very pretty and sexy and known for their sex appeal if famous

💅Capricorn + gemini venus or rising women are really pretty and make great models

👯‍♀️Lilith in eighth house is considered a sex symbol placement (Brigitte Bardot, Elvis Presley, Angelina Jolie, Sophia Loren)

🤔I would say gemini and virgo risings are the hardest signs to identify because of their mercurial rulership and mutability unlike Pisces and Sagittarius where there are clear distinctions in facial features and physique because of the Jupiter/Neptune affect (long legs, round faces, prominent forehead and eyes) gemini and virgo can easily be dominated by other planets in contact with the ascendant or first house but both signs give someone a very youthful doll like glow

🧠People tend to shit on hard Saturn contacts but I find that with time they usually evolve beautifully and the aspect can become a huge benefic but only with hard work. Saturn is the only planet that rewards for perseverance and patience but it’s always worth it

🥰Leo and Virgo’s are actually really similar in what they expect from themselves and others. They both just want to be appreciated and considered important to those around them.

👩‍🦳No matter what signs are involved sun conjunct venus always has a very feminine and pleasent face usually with a prominent forehead,, they’re also rlly well captured in photographs!

🤳Mars square Neptune probably had a period where they may have read a lot of dirty fanficton or fantasized about weird concepts sexually

🌝Leo moons are WAY more of attention seekers then leo suns im sorry but it’s like their emotional well-being depends on the amount of attention they get whereas Leo suns don’t necessarily ask for it bc they just attract it naturally with their aura (this isn’t every leo moon ofc just the ones I’ve observed)

🤦‍♂️I think Virgo suns are more critical of those around them and how that affects who they are whereas Virgo moons tend to be more critical of themselves and how their actions affect their surroundings

🦵I’ve noticed Mars in the 1st house females are usually rlly toned and skinny with long legs

💃Mars in Virgo is known as being prudish or like a not sexy placement of Mars and I rlly beg to differ, I swear every person that the general public’s been obsessed with when it comes to being hot has this (Dylan O brien, Austin Butler, Idris Alba, Blake Lively, Benedict Cumberbatch, Tom Felton, Ariana grande, Johnny depp, Britney Spears?!! there’s so many more u guys need to get on this)

🥴Aries moons are all about talking the talk but I swear half the time are not walking the walk and when they do they’ve talked shit to about 6 ppl already and waited for like a week before telling u how they feel

🤡Pisces moons (myself being one) can be so fucking stupid when it comes to liking someone I swear. We tend to make excuses for them and cling to whatever image we’ve set up in our head on who they are. Once evolved though it’s way easier for us to see ppl for who they are off the bat without going through the emotional distress!

😒I can confirm that we attract whatever signs in our eighth house mines in Aries and I swear to god not a year has gone by where an Aries man hasn’t infiltrated my life

👗people who have venus in the second house are the definition of quality over quantity!! always dressed so well with the cutest jewelry. They’re style carries libra energy :)

🥺Aries sun men are some of the most sensitive ppl I’ve ever met!! I didn’t realize it at first but they’re rlly soft and uwu. I don’t know how to explain it but think of Eren from AOT or Natsu from Fairy Tail! They’re kind of like a cheeky kid you want to protect at all costs

🤝I think a lot of square aspects can work in your favor if there’s a specific trine or conjunct aspect that’s energy can balance it out once activated if that makes sense ? Like for example I have venus square neptune and I used to put myself in alot of unnecessary painful situation bc I had a problem with deluding myself when it came to liking someone. Yet I was always aware that the person was not right for me or the situation was toxic bc of my sun conjunct pluto. The Sun/Pluto aspect has kind of forced me to be more aware of the venus/neptune affect and I’ve grown a lot stronger through those painful plutonic experiences in love and I can see through other people’s intentions for what they are with ease. I think that sun/pluto helped cancel out my delusion by making me go through a lot of intense experiences to finally understand what I was doing and see things for what they were.

🧛🏽‍♀️Going off of that I don’t care what anyone else says I LOVE MY PLUTO ASPECTS and trust me their pretty shitty (sun conjunct pluto, moon square pluto, pluto square asc). I’ve been put into some rlly crazy situations for only being 18 but I can go into the world with a lot more awareness of who I am and the people around me. I like the intensity they bring and the forcefulness of change in my habits and life. Pluto has made me a rlly strong person in terms of persevering through life and it’s challenges. I thank pluto for that.

👩🏽‍🤝‍👨🏼👨🏾‍🤝‍👨🏻👩🏿‍🤝‍👩🏼I think one of my favorite placements I have that is also super favorable in others is Jupiter in the 11th house! This may seem kind of random but the amount of opportunities and cool experiences I’ve been given through my friends and social circles is something I’m soo thankful for🙏 Friendship and just being a friendly person in general is something I’ve always found luck and happiness in and it’s so rewarding to have so many ppl like and support u for who u are! Making friends with ppl online and making friends from friends is super easy with this placement as well💞

[lilpuffyart]

I do not care that it is 3am, I must see Puffy talk about Count The Ways and sudden headcannons about their AU and give them quiet anon support. Take my quiet clapping. *quietly claps bcz its 3am* (-KA)

Okay

You've doomed yourself (a part I did at 3am and the other part I did now at 11am)

!!LONG POST AHEAD!! (Kind reminder that I do love the story but I still like to make fun of some parts)

IN THE FIRST FUCKING LINE, "deep voice" w h e r e where that crackhead energy voice is d e e p. I can accept threatening but d e e p???????????????????

Also I'm still upset that "silly millie" is "millie pamonha (that is a Brazilian food)" in the unofficial Portuguese translation

Second page and we discover millie belongs to the gays when she said "in tribute to the beautiful dead girl from edgar Allan Poe's poem" (she was talking about her cat name and I'm sorry if it's not the correct wording: its 3am and I have a stroke everytime I read some part of the book, also I don't have the English version :c)

Who's Curt Carrion?? Who's he based on??? My Chemical Romance?????? I would prefer if it was Evanescence tho for personal gay reasons ✊😔

Her grandpa has a sword collection and that's pretty neat, but makes me wonder if FunFred ever walked around the house with a fucking sword and everyone was okay with it

Grandpa: you're always so pale

Millie: lmao that's the point

Me 🤝 millie

Liking edgar allan poe

Also Millie's grandpa is millie's mom's dad?? Since he mentions that she would stay outside burning in the sun when she was 14-15yo

Also he's supportive of her disliking meat, we stan an old man ✊😔

THE COOKIES R BACK!!!!!!!! I still think daily about FunFred trying to cook it and messing it up smh even if grandpa is there. Also the fact she ate her grandpa cookies after he left makes me happy fsr

He mentions the workshop 😳😳 is he already aware FunFred is awake?? Who knows 👀👀

I know the timeline doesn't fit, but I like to think Dylan and Millie knew each other for more than a week

FUNFRED!!! LIKES MILLIE!!!!!! WRITE THAT DOWN WRITE THAT DOWN!!!!!!!!!

Millie honestly reminds me of when I was on high school and my depression peeked lmao I wanna hug her-

THE FALL OF THE HOUSE OF USHER IS A GREAT STORY I LOVE IT

I HAVE WAY TOO MANY THOUGHTS ABOUT HOW FUNFRED/THE ANIMATRONICS WORK BC OF A DUMB DRAWING I DID 1 YEAR AGO- like oil is the equivalent of blood to them and they do have water inside them, what keeps their mechanisms and stuff working well. Also when they r "sleeping" its extremely quiet, till they "woke up" and slowly their mechanisms do a lot of noise, till it calms down

Funfred has been around before millie moved there, and was probably awoken since then bc he heard her talking SO, from her bedroom window, u can see the workshop bc that's the only way he heard her (and she heard him later on)

Also I KNOW it wasn't like that but when her grandpa asked if the person he met was a boy or a girl I could literally only think "damnn a supportive grandpa, I love him" so that's where I'm goiNG

He mentions he went to university SOOOOOO what IF he and henry went to the same university and both did something related to mechanic/mathematic and that's how they became close friends 👀👀 (I am aware he was a mathematic teacher but he still could have done both or started mechanic, dropped it and started to study mathematic)

Also I lowkey wish we knew what her grandma died of

ALSO I like to think FunFred himself is someone that is scared of doing things himself instead of... just letting things go

I love how, when millie asked if he was going to bite her neck (bc he was talked about Dracula) he just wenT "OH YAY I COULD DO THAT BUT U R IM MY STOMACH" FJFJFJXHXJJCJCGKFJFJFJFJ I HATE HIMMMM

Here we go to FunFred's hyperfixation ✊😔 I'm sure that, whenever millie goes to the library, he begs her to bring some kind of history book

The fact millie doesn't know how to say Chutlu is big gay energy and everyone energy

COUNT THE WAYS AU IS NAMED COUNT THE WAYS BC IT'S THE MANY WAYS FUNFRED LOVES MILLIE AND GRANDPA AND IN THAT ESSAY ILL DIE AND COMBUST

Me, a veterinary student: Hahah I know what's ventricular fibrillation is

Idk why but I like to think millie studied something related to literature in university, but, if she did end up working on a library, I think people would 1. Be creeped out by FunFred 2. Think he's cute, no inbetween

Me 🤝 grandpa

Going somewhere bc it has free food

WHY IS EVERYONE SO MEAN TO HER SHE'S LITERALLY A TEENAGER STOP BEING LIKE THAT WTF???

That part of that party makes me emotional bc something similar happened with me (not related to a s/o other tho)

FunFred is back being a dumbass I love/hate him

Unpopular opinion but I still strongly dislike millie's family

FunFred would buy a guillotine online ngl

In Millie's defense I would crawl inside an animatronic bear as well

POV: you're rob, millie's uncle, and you found out the worst way that she has a bear guard body, in a way (I hate rob honestly lmao)

That was my presentation, thank you for your attention

[video-killed-the-radio-host]

My Love, Come and Save Me ch4

Hellooooooo long time no chapter

@lady-dmaris

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Cecil stared in horror at the man across the table. How did he get mixed up in this? He gives a whimper but feels Charles’s hand tighten around his arm and he clamps his mouth shut. He’s haphazardly shoved into a chair at the table and Charles sits beside him. It takes all of his self control to not flinch back when Charles leans close. 

“Remember what I said beautiful. One wrong move and-“ Charles presses the barrel of a gun against Cecil’s leg. 

Cecil tenses and nods quickly. Charles smiles and kisses temple before sitting up straight. 

“So Charles.” Carlos speaks up. “Who’s your new friend?”

Charles turns his attention back to Carlos. “Oh this?” He runs his knuckles down Cecil’s cheek. Cecil bites the inside of his cheek and does his best not to react. “This is Dylan Marron. He’s our newest Recruit. Beautiful isn’t he?”

“Well I can’t say you have bad taste.” Carlos answers with an easy smile. “What’s with the sunglasses?”

Cecil opens his mouth to answer, but Charles digs his nails into his leg and Cecil’s jaw snapped shut. 

“He’s got light sensitivity and he’s a mute. But we all have our flaws right? And he most certainly makes up for it in other ways.” Charles smirks and drapes an arm around Cecil’s shoulders, fingers brushing through the short brown hair while his other hand held Kevin’s gently, brushing a thumb over the other man’s knuckles. 

Cecil manages a small, forced smile but keeps his eyes down. He can just barely feel the gun laying on Charles’s lap. Maybe he could…..but then they were in a room with Charles’s armed men. Even if he could get the gun, he or Carlos would be shot down before he could even get the safety off. All he could do was sit there and take the advances. 

Charles gives a softly laugh and shakes his head. “That’s nice.” He then sits up straight, face serious. “I’ve actually come to ask for your help.”

Charles lets go if Cecil and sits upright. “What’s wrong?”

“It’s about Cecil.”

Cecil does his best not to react at both Carlos’s words and the fact that Charles’s hand tightened on his leg again. He dug his nails into the soft flesh there, causing Cecil to bite back a whimper. 

“Is something wrong? Where is Cecil anyway? I thought you never went anywhere without him.” Charles rests his chin in his palm. 

Carlos shifts a little. “That’s the thing. I have no idea. He disappeared Friday and I haven’t heard from him since. I think someone took him. And I-I’m worried. He doesn’t do good with a lot of stress.”

Cecil shivers when Charles rubs his thumb back and forth over his leg. 

“That’s terrible. Is there anything I can do to help?”

“I was hoping you could use your connections to check around? I hate to ask favors but I really need to find him.”

“I don’t mind helping. I’ll look around for you. We’re going to find him. Don’t worry.”

Carlos face breaks into a relieved smile. “Thank you. I owe you one.”

“Eh don’t worry about it. I’m happy to help.”

Cecil stares at the man across the table, desperately hoping to get him to realize what he was missing was right here. Right in front of him. 

"Is there anything specific I need to let my people know? Birthmarks or tattoos or the like?"

"Well…." Carlos bites his lip. 

"The more information I have the better chance we have of finding him." Charles points out. 

"He has a birthmark shaped like an eye on his left hip. He doesn't have any tattoos but he does have freckles on his collar bone."

Cecil tenses again when he feels Charles's arm slip around his waist and bunch the dress shirt up a little, enough to brush his finger tips against the skin of Cecil's hips before digging his nails in. Cecil bites down hard on the inside of his lip as he fights back a reaction. What's going to happen to him now? Who knows what Charles is going to do when they're alone again. 

"I'll put my best people on it." Charles gives a sweet smile. He looks up as the waitress approaches. "Oh Hello Cassandra. We'll take the usual love."

 The waitress gives a tight smile and a nod. "Of course sir. And you?" She looks at Cecil. 

Charles digs his nails into Cecil's side more, nearly breaking the skin. "He'll have it too. Won't you dear?" He purrs at Cecil, once again pressing the gun into Cecil's leg. He slowly moves the gun up to rest at the hem of Cecil's pants. It was a silent threat. Choose your reactions carefully if you want to get out of this alive. 

Cecil swallows thickly and just nods. 

"So why does the waitress look ready to shank you?" Carlos asks with an amused smile after she had left. 

"Oh she's just mad cause her wife works for Ellie to pay off their debt to me." Charles muses into his wine glass. 

"Ah well, that's a shame."

Cecil feels himself zone out as the lunch goes on. He picks at the food he's served, aware that this could be the last unpoisoned meal he gets for a while but not hungry enough to stomach it.  He knows Charles brought him here to torture him. To make him see that he's helpless. Maybe he got off on it. Charles had moved the gun away again but that doesn't ease Cecil's nerves. If anything it made him more on edge. That gun could be pointed at Carlos. He does finish the glass of red wine but doesn't allow himself to enjoy it. Eventually the arm around his waist disappeared, making Cecil look up. Charles was paying the check but Kevin was standing. Kevin puts his hands on Cecil's shoulders. Cecil looks up. Kevin jerks his head and Cecil takes the silent cue to follow. 

Once at the car, Kevin pushes Cecil against it, leaning close.

Cecil's eyes go wide in fear. 

"Shh. Don't panic." Kevin whispers. "He's watching but I saw what he did and thought you might need a getaway."

Cecil nods minutely. 

"Spread your legs a little. I'm not going to touch you but he needs to be convinced."

Cecil looks uneasy but shifts his stance as Kevin wedges a knee between his thighs. 

"We need to talk."

"Okay…." Cecil says in confusion. 

"I'm your friend in this mess and I need you to tell me if he's ever to much and I'll see what I can do."

"Kevin…..you shouldn't risk yourself for me. I'm not worth-"

"Shh shh. Just let me offer you the chance for help I never got."

Cecil looks down before looking back up. "Thank you Kevin. Thank you. I wish I could do something for you-"

Kevin looks around before looking back at Cecil. "Forgive me." He says softly before leaning forward, putting his hand over Cecil's lips. 

Cecil's eyes go wide and before he could protest, Kevin is kissing him over the hand. 

"Having fun without me?" Charles's voice makes Cecil jump. Kevin pulls away and turns. 

"Of course not. I just was trying to calm Cecil's nerves is all." Kevin smiles. 

"Well we can have fun later. Kevin get him in the car. We need to get home."

-----.-----

“Riley I need you to run a check for me.” Carlos says as he bursts into her office and makes her jump.

“Dude chill. What do you need boss?”

“I need you to run a search for a Dylan Marron. He would have recently moved here.” Carlos leans over next to her. Something about that guy put Carlos on edge. 

“Anything to narrow it down?”

“Black hair Though likely dyed and he’s a mute.”

“Alright….” Riley pops her fingers before typing quickly, scanning through lists and databases. "Anything else? Eye color?"

"No. He had sunglasses the whole time. Charles said something about light sensitivity."

After a moment there is a ping. “Uh Carlos?”

“Yeah?”

“Dylan Marron doesn’t exist."

-----.-----

Cecil stirs when the bedroom door opens. He sits up a little. "Carlos?" He slurs. The bed dips beside him and he sees the faint orange glow of a cigarette. Wait a moment. Carlos doesn't smoke…..

Cecil is rolls onto his side and his sleep shirt is pushed up as rough hands move over his skin. A pen light makes Cecil squint.

"What-" He cuts off with a scream.

The cigarette is pressed into the birthmark on his side repeatedly. He tried to push his attacker away but another hand pins his wrists to his chest. The cigarette is pressed into his skin again and again, burning the sensitive skin. Cecil twists in an attempt to escape the pain. "Stop." He sobs. "Please….stop. I'm sorry. Please… I'm sorry. Im sorry. Whatever I promise I won't do it again." He begs and begs until he blacks out. 

[dylinski]

TBWTBE (4/?)

Warnings: SMUT, Oral (male receiving), Angst, Language (i think), your typical derek brooding angsty shit.

Relationships: Derek Hale/Kate Argent

Word Count: 2847

Author: @dylan-obrien-fanblog

A/N: I know this series is going slow, its agonizing for me too, but I need to lead up to the big parts. not many feed back is always welcome, good or bad. Honestly, i’ve gotten basically no feedback, so more than anything im writing this for me. GO ME.

Chapter 4

Derek sulked around the house with his head hung as his cousins played cheerfully. The twins ran up to him on either side, standing to his waist and tugged on his shirt begging him to play with them. “Leave me alone.” The dark haired boy shrugged them off as he grunted. When they refused to loosen their grip, he growled at them, causing them to scream as they ran away. Talia immediately locked her gaze on her son and pulled in her brows, giving him a stern look.

“Derek, you do not speak to your cousin’s like that nor do you growl at them. We are werewolves, not animals.” Derek shot his mom a look of annoyance as he rolled his eyes. Without hesitation, she shifted from mother to alpha. She shot up from where she was seated and gave Derek a look that caused him to shrink in size, cowering before the alpha. 

The boy looked up at her with deep green eyes, full of pain and she let the alpha melt away as she became his mother again. “Derek,” she whispered as she caressed his sorrowful face. “You’ve been walking around this house for almost a week now with this atrocious behavior. Talk to me my child.”

Derek averted his eyes from his mother, unwilling to reveal any reason to his behavior. He pulled his face away from her touch, immediately feeling guilty at the motion. He didn’t look to see her reaction, but she knew it was one of disappointment, in him and his reluctance to talk to her. He walked away from her before she could see the tears starting to fill his eyes. “If you won’t talk to me, please talk to someone. You can’t let this eat away at you the way Paige did.”

Derek stopped in his tracks, eyes wide, as his mother spoke to his back. He raised his head and held his breath. This was the first time his mother had spoken to him about her since the cellar. Lost in his thoughts, he lost all his strength towards holding back his tears as they began to fall down his face. He ran to his room to hide from her words and the world.

He curled up into a ball in his bed as he tried to escape the thoughts that were now flooding him. His memories of Paige that had fallen to the back of his mind since he met Kate. It was like reliving the whole story again. When he saw her for the first time in the hallway while playing basketball with his friends. Seeing her play cello when she thought she was alone. The first time they kissed under the stars. Her snarky comments towards him. The way she didn’t put up with his bullshit and told him what she thought without hesitation.

Then his mind drifted, without his consent, to the sound of her heart racing as she ran through the halls of the school from the alpha who attacked her. Her screams when he bit her. The black blood that seeped from everywhere while she laid dying in his arms. Her cries of agony that he couldn’t alleviate. Her begging him to take her life and-- Derek slammed his eyes shut, pulling his legs in closer to his chest. He screamed, trying to shut out her death. He opened his eyes and laid there, gasping for breaths between sobs. His face covered in tears and snot, his face puffy and red. He wiped his eyes with his sleeve as he sat up, collecting himself from the attack of emotions and sat at the edge of the bed, looking at his feet.

His mother had been right. He needed to talk to someone, but he had no one to talk to. No one outside of his mother and Peter knew he was the cause of Paige’s death, but neither of them would understand what he went through, the part of his soul that was taken when he took her life. Not only could he not talk to them about Paige, but he couldn’t talk about Kate either. Peter would tell his mother and she would order him not to see her anymore. Yeah, he was 16 and she was 22, but it was different with her. They just don’t understand. 

Derek’s phone buzzed on his desk, springing him back to reality. Sniffing and then wiping the snot from his nose, he stood up and walked over to answer the phone. He saw that it was Kate, and where he normally would have been ecstatic to hear from her, he felt melancholy. He took a deep breath, cleared his throat, and answered the phone as best he could.

“Hello.” His voice rasped as he spoke, revealing the soreness and that tears still lingered in his eyes.

“Hey stranger.” Kate spoke in her smooth, seductive voice. The sounds immediately bringing warmth to Derek, filling the emptiness he had been feeling only a second ago. She heard the hoarseness of his voice, but ignored it. “I’ve missed you, handsome. Wanna come over and play some more poker?”

“Um, yeah. Sure.” Kate was not unaware of his lack of enthusiasm. While Derek did want to see her, he also wanted to escape the lingering sadness and reminders of his room and family. Kate allowed him to escape from this world he found himself in. He slipped out of the house while everyone was getting ready to eat dinner. He hopped on his bicycle and then headed for Kate’s cabin.

What would have taken a human about 45 minutes to bike took him 20. The lights were on inside, but that was no surprise. The sun was starting to set, giving the sky an orange tint that broke through the trees. He walked up to the door and knocked, then shoved his hands in his pockets to hide his sweaty palms. Kate answered the door, wearing jeans and a spaghetti-strap tank top. His eyes gave her a once over, her cleavage not going unnoticed. She caught his gaze and smiled devilishly at the boy. “Come on in.” She stepped aside, allowing him to enter. He kept his head down as he did, hiding his embarrassment.

She asked him if he wanted a beer and derek accepted. He really didn’t want one and it was pointless since it would have no effects, but he didn’t want the woman to ask questions. What sixteen year old boy wouldn’t say yes to a beer? He sat down at the same table as before, the cards already sitting in a stack on its surface.

She handed him the beer, another in her hand for herself, and sat down in the chair sideways, using the chair’s back as an armrest. She gave to boy a crooked smile as she took a swig from the bottle. “So.” Her voice echoed through the small space. She turned in the chair to face the boy and leaned forward, resting her chin on her hand. “What’s new with my brooding boy?”

Derek furrowed his thick brows, immediately glaring at the woman and shot back in a loud voice, “I don’t brood.” She raised her eyebrows causing him to relax his face. His cheeks turned red as he realized he was, in fact, brooding. She laughed and shook her head at him as she picked up the cards and started to shuffle.

“You need to lighten up kid. Relax and have some fun.” Derek raised his eyebrows to her, interested in her ideas. He desperately wanted to, but somewhere along the way he’d forgotten how. Kate flashed a cheshire grin that sent chills down the boy’s spine. “I have an idea.” She spoke in a deeper and more mischievous tone than Derek had heard her use before. “Let’s play strip poker.”

Derek’s face went flush and his body froze at the suggestion. He must have looked sickly because concern covered Kate’s face, a look he had never seen on her before. He shook the cobwebs from his head and answered. “Yeah.” He hadn’t realized what he said until it was too late to take it back.

His cheeks were flushed and he couldn’t look Kate in the eye. She found this amusing, to see him writhe and wriggle in discomfort under her thumb. She began to deal the cards out as Derek thought to himself that this is really happening.

His wolf howled at him, telling him this was a bad idea, but his raging hormones proved to be superior. He took the cards that sat in front of him and began what he knew would be a long night.

———

“Full house,” Derek laid his cards out in front of him in confidence. Kate raised her brow and smiled deceptively. Dread fell over him as he knew what was coming. 

“Royal flush, baby.” She winked at him as he threw his arms back and groaned. Derek then proceeded to remove his jeans. As he stood there in nothing but his boxers, Kate looked him over as she bit her bottom lip. For some reason, this made Derek want to cover himself, like she was a wolf eyeing her prey. He sat back down quickly to hide himself behind the chair.

“How come you haven’t lost a single game?” Derek asked sincerely. Suddenly he furrowed his brows, “Are you cheating?” His accusations were hard and cold. Kate laughed.

“Here,” she stood up and removed her top, revealing a pink laced bra. “Better?” She looked down at him seductively with hazel eyes. Derek couldn’t believe his eyes. He didn’t mean to stare, but shock left him useless and unable to move. He finally averted his eyes when he could feel pressure building in his boxers.

He turned to face the table and kept his eyes down. Kate sat back down at her seat and rested her face on her hand. “Don’t be shy, Derek. It’s okay.” Her voice wasn’t soft or sweet, but it was relieving. He slowly turned his head to meet her, but looked at her face the entire time. “You act like you’ve never seen a naked girl before.”

Derek blushed as he shook his head, “I haven’t.” He spoke under his breath, barely audible. Kate sat back and let her mouth fall open in amazement. She stood up and grabbed Derek’s wrists, pulling him up in front of her. Derek stood two inches above Kate. Her eyes turned black as she took a step away and wrapped her arms around her back. She unhooked her bra, letting the straps fall down her arms until the garment hit the floor. Derek bit his bottom lip and felt the pressure rising again. 

Kate stepped forward and grabbed Derek’s right hand and put it on her left breast. He swallowed the lump in throat as he took in her peaks and valleys. Her hand still holding his, she squeezed, prompting him to do the same. Kate bit her lip and let it slide through her teeth. Derek took his other hand and placed it on the lonely breast. He gave both of them a good squeeze and looked back to Kate. She was giving her all too familiar seductive smile. “I’m guessing you’ve never touched a girl before either.” She asked, and Derek shook his head. “So that means your a virgin.” Even though it wasn’t a question, he still nodded yes. “Have you ever done anything?” Derek looked back up again at her face and looked embarrassed for his lack of experience.

“My girlfriend would sometimes rub me through my pants. And we made out a lot, but that was all.” He looked down to the floor, ashamed. Kate took her hand under his chin and lifted it up. She looked into his eyes, studying him and then brought his face to her lips. They touched for a moment and then parted. Derek looked at her for a moment, then the wolf took over, like a primal instinct. He grabbed Kate’s head with both his hands, pulling it towards him, smashing his lips against hers. She responded by pulling his body into hers. She wrapped her arms around the boy and clawed at his skin, leaving trails.

Derek parted his lips to take a breath, but Kate took the opportunity and pushed her tongue through the opening. They explored each other’s mouths, entangling their tongues. She guided the boy to the couch and then broke from his lips. She pushed him down with a growl and stood, towering over him. She looked down to see his fully erect cock begging to escape. Kate licked her lips and eased herself down until her weight was balanced on the balls of her feet. She slid her hands slowly up his thighs until they reached his waistband. Her touch alone was enough to send him over the edge.

She tugged on the material, allowing the firm member to spring free. She smiled, pleased with what she saw. The boy’s jaw dropped at the feeling of freedom. She palmed his stomach and blew air on him as her hands made their way down the trail of hair. She wrapped her hand around his cock and pumped it twice. She used her thumb to swirl the precum that had beaded at his slit. She pumped him a few more times before she kissed his tip. She licked the spot she just kissed, swirling her tongue in circles around his sensitive spot. He threw his head back in pleasure and Kate took that moment to take him entirely into her mouth. The surprise caused his body to shake. He looked back at her and they kept eye contact as she pulled back slowly on the shaft. As she reached the head of his cock, she scraped him with her teeth, stirring the wolf and releasing a growl.

He wanted the feeling of her mouth again, so he grabbed the back of her head, urging her forward. Almost instantly she reached back and took his hand, slamming it on his knee. Derek was surprised, but found the dominance even more arousing. She chuckled at his response, sending vibrations up is cock and into his stomach where his release was hanging on by a thread. She bobbed on his cock a few more times before his body began to shudder, signaling his release. She leaned back and told him to cum on her tits. He obliged, standing up and pumping himself as spurts of warm seed shot onto her breasts. He milked out every last drop, riding his high until his muscles lost all strength and he fell back onto the couch. 

Kate got up and went to the kitchen, she cleaned herself up and put her bra back on. Derek felt self-conscious about it, so decided to cover up as well. He pulled his boxers up from around his ankles and found his jeans on the floor. After he put his shirt on he sees Kate in the kitchen, leaning against the counter and drinking a beer. He goes in and stands next to her. 

“It’s getting late. Don’t you have school tomorrow?” She asked without looking at him. He nodded yes and turned to face the beautiful woman.

“I’ll see you later then?” He smiled and leaned in for a kiss but his lips were met by Kate’s finger. 

“I’ll call you.” She stepped past the insecure child and went to the bedroom, closing the door behind her. Unsure how to read the situation, Derek grabbed his coat from the chair and hesitantly left. He thought he must have done something wrong and wanted to fix it, but he didn’t want to seem childish. So he headed back home on his bike.

It was a little after 8PM when he got back, all the kids were asleep, but his mother was up. She was reclined on the couch, the spot he often found her in. As he entered the house, her eyes immediately flickered up to the boy. As he passed where she was, he saw a look on her he had never seen. Her face often wore confidence and composure, but this was an expression of shock and confusion. He mirrored the look to his mother.

Derek’s eyes widened as he realized why she must have made the face. His scent reeked of sex. Mortified, he turned and continued upstairs, thankful that his mother didn’t oppose. He jumped in the shower, washing away the events of the night, but the memories lingered in his mind. He replayed every part, trying to pinpoint what he did to make Kate so standoffish. Did he cum too fast? Did he touch her wrong? Was it when he put his hand behind her head? He got out of the shower and dried off. He pulled on a pair of clean boxers and plopped into bed. He wanted to keep analyzing what happened, but he was exhausted from all of it, so he passed out almost instantly.

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Boy Meets Girl (Chapter 3)

Author: Sumcp

Chapter Three: The Drive Home

Characters: Dylan O'Brien x Reader

Word Count: 3211

Warnings: occasional swearing, hint at verbal abusive relationship, and terrible sentence structure/grammar ( I am working on it)

Note: This is based off the Disney Channel Movie Starstruck with a twist. I do not own the rights to the movie. Also, if your a Britt Robinson fan you probably won’t like this series, just FWI. Comments always welcome :)

Chapter 1 -- Chapter 2 -- Chapter 4

You stood in Dylan’s closet, ear pressed against the door trying to listen to his and the girl he just called Brittany. She is pissed. You didn’t know why he shoved you in here, but you wanted to get out. You weren’t the type of girl to follow directions, but you figured bursting out right now was a bad idea, so against your better judgment you stayed hidden.

“What the fuck is this shit Dylan?” You heard the girl scream at him. Yep, I’m definitely staying put.

“Britt let me expain–” Dylan begged, but was cut off by Britt shoving her phone in his face. 

“Explain what Dylan? That you took some slut up to your room to get a quicky in before the party? Are you kidding me! I drove 2 hours from set to get here Dylan so we could be seen together, and you pull this shit.” She was still screaming in Dylan’s face, while Dylan sat on the edge of his bed biting his lip to keep from yelling

“Britt It’s not–" 

"Oh It’s not what it looks like.. Really? Let me see.” Britt turned her phone toward her face and zoomed in on the picture. “It sure looks like your dragging some nobody up the stairs to your room. Dylan,  you have a movie fixing to be released and im on the verge of signing that major deal. We can’t afford this right now, you know how much this movie deal means for my career.”

“I know Britt I’ll–" 

"You’ll what? Huh? ” Dylan didn’t bother trying to answer, knowing she would just cut him off again. “You know this picture will be every were. I can’t believe you were so careless.” She spat. “You better call your agent and fix this Dylan or  I swear to god I will drag you so far down in the mud your career will never recovery from it. I can see the headlines now, Dylan O'Brien sleeps with random slut cheating on his wonderful girlfriend of 5 years.”

You caught ever word of their argument and you couldn’t believe Dylan wasn’t jumping down her throat. You were pissed now, and you wanted nothing more than to throw open the closet door and slap Brittany for calling you a random slut. You contemplated the pro’s and con’s of hitting a celebrity, finally you decided against it knowing it would just make the whole thing harder for Dylan.

“I’m sure the sluts still in here so I’m going to give you a minute to say goodbye to your toy. Meet me down in the living room in 5 so we can get a couple of pictures before I leave, and grab Tyler too. He can be your cover story.” With that being said she turned around and left the room, slamming the door one last time.

You didn’t wait for Dylan to open the door, you decided to let yourself out.  "Man, your girlfriend’s a bitch O'Brien.“

The sullen look on his face disappeared and he started laughing at your comment. "I know..” He trailed off standing up from the bed to look at you. “I’m sorry for what she said.. We both know that’s not why you were up here, but when she gets like this is better to just agree with her.”

“Why didn’t you just explain everything, and how did she even know?” You asked.

“Apparently someone took a picture of us as we got to the top of the stairs.” He grumbled, “And she was right, I should have been more careful. You don’t know what it’s like to be a celebrity.. The paparazzi twist everything around and make stuff up." 

"I get that.. Sort of, but what I don’t get is she was more concerned someone caught it on camera than she was that you actually had a girl up here." 

"Me and Britt.. We’re complicated Y/N.” Dylan stated, and you could tell by his tone that was all you were going to get. You made your way over to stand in front of him, trying to lighten the mood 

“I would be lying if I said I didn’t almost throw open the door so I could show her what a ‘nobody slut’ I was, but I figured it would make things worse on you.”

“Aw.. You care.” Dylan sang, a sly grin on his face.

“Watch it O'Brien.” You glared at him playfully, “I just didn’t want to go to jail for assault and battery tonight. I couldn’t pull of an orange jumpsuit.”

“I’m sure you could pull off anything.” Dylan praised, shamelessly raking his eyes over your body for the second time tonight. Suddenly the air became thick with tension and the way Dylan was looking at you made every nerve in your body go haywire. You stayed staring at each other for what seemed like hours, but only minutes went by. Dylan’s usually honey-brown eyes were clouded over, and his licked his bottom lip. You were the one to ruin the moment this time, remembering he did have a girlfriend.

“You should probably go, your master is waiting on you.” You taunted, making your way over to sit on the bed. Dylan kept looking from you toward the door, desperately wanting to stay, but he knew what he had to do. His career was everything to him, and he knew if he stayed with her Britt would ruin in. He cleared his throat, trying to gain some composure.

“She’s not my master..” He grumbled, but it was loud enough for you to hear.

“You sure about that?” You shot back, raising your eyebrow daringly.

“Yes, I’m sure. Like I said it’s complicated Y/N, you wouldn’t understand. Your not famous.” He spat. Your face fell at his tone, realizing he was right. You were a nobody. Dylan saw the look on your face, he could tell he took it to far. “Y/N..”

You didn’t give him the opportunity to apologize. “You should go Dylan, your celebrity girlfriend is waiting for you to make an appearance.” You didn’t bother looking at him, instead you turned your attention to the flat screen TV you turned on, trying to find something to watch. Dylan took the hint that you were done talking to him, and made his way out of the room, closing the door softly behind him.

It had been an hour since Dylan went downstairs to be with Britt, and you were getting more agitated by the minute. You decided you were going home, with or without Dylan’s help. You opened the door carefully, checking both ways before you made your way into the empty hallway. You kept your head down, not wanting to draw attention to yourself. You looked out over the banister, watching the party unfold, when your eyes quickly found Dylan. He had his arms wrapped around Britt from behind, dancing slowly to the beat of the music. He was leaving kisses on her neck, making his way up to her ear whispering in it. You stood there for a moment, just watching them. You felt a pang in your heart, and that made you angry. Angry because you actually started to feel something for someone else.

The song they were dancing to ended, and you watched Dylan engulf his girlfriend in a hug. You felt the same  felling again, when you watched her crash her lips to his. You didn’t notice someone come to stand beside you until they spoke up.

“It’s not what it looks like.” Tyler offered, gesturing toward Dylan and Britt. You turned to look at him, a small smile forming on your lips as he tried to defend his best friend.

“It’s exactly what it looks like.” You stated, making your way down the stairs leaving Tyler without another word. You didn’t notice Britt leaving through the front door of the house as you found the door leading to the garage, but before you could get to far a hand grabbed your arm.

“Woah, where are you going?” Dylan asked with a frown on his face.

“Anywhere but here.” You snapped. 

“What did I do now?” Dylan asked, searching your face for some type of explanation. You just stared at him, trying to keep your emotions under control.

“You promised to take me home..” You reminded him, “When?”

“Let me find my keys, I’ll take you home." 

"No." 

"Fine, we’ll walk. Where do you live again?” Dylan asked.

“Hollywood.”

“That’s great.” Dylan huffed, “We’ll get there… on Tuesday.” He said sarcastically. You stood for a moment having a stare down with Dylan, until you conceded.

“Okay.” You sighed. You didn’t want to go anywhere with him, but you had to get home somehow.

“Okay?” He narrowed his eyes at you, surprised you gave in so quickly.

“Yes, but only because walking the streets of LA alone on a Saturday night is not the best idea, so here are the rules..” You noticed Dylan rolling his eyes dramatically, which you chose to ignore. “You drive me straight there, drop me off, and then you come back to your fabulous life.” You threw your hands up excitedly, putting more emphasis on fabulous. You knew the jab would hurt Dylan, but you took it anyway.

Dylan just mimicked you, sighing loudly. He walked over to the box beside the door and pulled out a set of keys. You watched him walk to the other door opposite of the one you came in. He opened it, sweeping his arms through gesturing for you to go first. You huffed, wanting to refuse any type of kindness he offered, but you wanted to go home and forget about this night. You walked through the door, noticing it was a second garage which held a black SUV.

You had been driving for 20 minutes, neither of you saying a word. He kept daring glaces at you but didn’t say anything. Dylan had enough of the silence so he plugged his AUX cord into his phone, and started playing music. The first song that came on was by Alkaline Trio. He started to sing along softly, drumming his hands on the steering wheel.

“Really?” You teased, which brought Dylan out of his rock star performance.

“Oh I’m sorry, I forget not everyone likes this type of music.” Dylan said sheepishly, offering you his phone to choose a song.

“No I love Calling all Skeletons, it’s my favorite song by them.” You admitted, smiling for the first time. Dylan gawked at you, but you didn’t pay attention. You had your eyes closed, signing along to the song.

Where did you go as the lights went black? Look whats become of me 

I’ve grown to love your disappearing acts

Do one more pretty please

Now the time has come I just wish I could erase

All the damage done, all this pain, all this heartache 

It’s only just begun, it’s been fun, we were fucked up and numb

There’s a killer on the corner and he’s looking for love 

He’s, looking for love, Yeah he’s looking for (you my love)

Dylan watched as you sang along, impressed. The song ended and you opened your eyes to see Dylan watching you, a small smile on his face.

“What?” You snapped at him, which caused him to laugh.

“Nothing, you just have a nice voice.” He said honestly, which made you laugh. “Here you can pick the next song.” The tension slowly stated to ease away as a couple of songs played in the background. Dylan was fixing to say something when you interrupted him.

“Turn right here.” You pointed to your left. The last few minutes trickled by and Dylan was turning into your driveway. The lights were on in the house, and Annabeth’s car was in the garage. Shit, she’s gonna be so pissed.

You sat there for a moment, gnawing on your lip nervously. You didn’t want to leave Dylan, but after seeing him with Brittany at the party, you couldn’t help but feel pathetic. He was a celebrity, a celebrity with a shitty girlfriend, but a celebrity non the less. You hated the way he made you feel, so you decided to end it right there. You were going to get out of the car, and not think about him again.

“Thanks for the ride..” You trailed off. You pulled the handle opening the door the car to get out, but Dylan stopped you by grabbing your arm.

“Y/N wait… I just wanted to say I’m sorry.” Dylan looked at you, a sad smile on his face.

“Noted. Are we done now?” You spat, jerking your arm out of Dylan’s grasp. You noticed the hurt look on his face, but you didn’t want to think about it. All you wanted was to go home and forget you ever met him.

“Yeah… I guess we’re done..” Dylan murmured, slumping in his seat. Dylan didn’t want to let you go just yet, but he knew he had to. He didn’t get the luxury of being selfish. 

“Good.” You stated, getting out of the car. You faintly heard Dylan mumble goodbye before you slammed the door, making your way into the house. Dylan sat in the driveway watching you walk away, thinking he just made a terrible mistake. You had almost made it to the door when noticed a black van driving slowly down the street shining a light around. Dylan didn’t notice the paparazzi when they were driving, probably because all he could focus on was you. He quickly got out of the car, trying not shut the door to hard.

“Y/N, wait.” He whisper-yelled, but it still managed to get your attention.

“Go away Dylan.” You grumbled. 

“Look I’ll give you five thousand dollars if you do me this favor.” He said, looking around to the road panicking.

“It’s not a favor if you pay for it.” You reminded him.

“So is that a yes?” He asked. You noticed he was concerned, and you had no idea why. You looked into his eyes, and the pleading look in them was enough for you to agree to anything. You realized this boy could pull on your heart strings like a puppeteer, and that scared you more than anything. 

10 minutes later you were rolling Dylan’s SUV into the garage next to Annabeths silver honda because the paparazzi. You were sweating slightly due to pushing a car combined with the LA heat. You grabbed a Georgia sleeping bag off a shelf, handing it to Dylan. He frowned at the sleeping bag, but took it anyway.

“What?” You asked, annoyed at Dylans ungratefulness.

“Your a Georgia fan, does that mean your a braves fan too?” He asked skeptically.

“No." 

"Oh then who do you go for?” He asked excitedly, secretly hoping it wasn’t the Yankees.

“No one, I hate baseball.” You scoffed and Dylan’s eyes practically fell out of his head as he screamed.

“How do you not like baseball?! It’s Americas favorite pastime!”

“It’s America’s stupidest pastime.” You countered, rolling your eyes. He just stared at you dumbfounded. “You’ll be out of here before morning right?”

“Yes and hopefully no one will know I was here.” He said, rubbing the back of his neck awkwardly. 

“I’ll know.” You grumbled loud enough for him to hear you, which he rolled his eyes at.

“Hey um.. is there anything in here I can wear so when I do leave the paparazzi won’t recognize me?” He asked hopefully.

“You could check in those.” Pointed to a couple of boxes on the ground. Dylan gave you an awkward finger gun motion as he dug through the boxes.

“Is all this really necessary?”

“Yes, you clearly don’t understand. They’re…They’re everywhere.” Dylan grimaced, referring to the paparazzi.

“Paranoid.” You sang, coming to stand behind him crossing your arms.

“Just forget.” He snapped.

“Love too..” You sassed back. He stopped rummaging around and pulled out an old worn out cap putting it on his mop of chocolate brown hair. Your heart broke slightly at the sight, realizing what box he was looking through.

Dylan turned around so you could see. “How about this?” He only noticed your face looked pained, and he immediately regretted asking.

“That was my ex-Fiance’s hat. He used to wear it all the time, he called it his lucky hat.” Dylan looked at you, confused. He took it off his head quickly, silently cursing.

“Shit, I’m sorry.. Here.” He went to hand it back to you, but you backed up slightly. You shook your head, not wanting to touch the hat afraid of the memories it would bring.

“No you keep it.. It looks better on you anyways.” You said before you could stop yourself. Dylan raised an eyebrow at you, which caused you to blush.

“It obviously wasn’t a lucky hat if he still lost you.” Dylan offered, and you could hear the seriousness in his voice. He took a couple of steps toward you, staring into your eyes again. The tension started to build, but you refused to let it get out of hand.

“Stop doing that.” You growled.

“What am I doing?”

“You know exactly what you’re doing.” You huffed dramatically, “In fact, I bet you do it all the time. You give girls that.. That look.” You gestured toward Dylan’s gorgeous face, and a slight smirk fell onto his lips. “And  expect them to fall for you. Well its not working on me, so stop it.” He laughed lightly, shaking his head but continued to stare at you. “Do you need anything else?”

“No I’m cool.”

“Yeah so cool you’re sleeping in your car.” It was a cheap shot, and you knew it. He pursed his lips at you, and you let out a small sigh. “Goodnight Dylan.” You made your way toward the door, ready to go inside and get yelled at by Annabeth when he grabbed your arm to stop you once again.

“Y/N.. Thank you..” You nodded your head, accepting the gratitude. You turned the knob to the door, opening it quietly as possible, but before you walked into the house you dared one last look at Dylan. You didn’t know how this had happened, but you let this boy into your heart. In the morning he would be gone, back to his celebrity girlfriend and you will be left to live your ordinary life without a second thought. The scariest part of all this was you saw it coming, at it still hurt.

[survivenovascotia]

Episode 4 - WHAT IS HAPPENING OVER THERE IM FUCKING DYINGGGGGGGG - Dylan

I survived tribal! Barely! What a terrifying feeling that was. “We’re tied. Three votes John, three votes Keegan, one vote left.” I pray to Cthulhu I never have to feel that again. Sunshine, Dan and Jessie have apparently all messaged the rest of the tribe but they’ve been shockingly quiet towards me. And I have no plans to message any of them first. You want me out? You can come crawling back to my feet to beg for forgiveness. Maybe I’d consider it. This next challenge is a fun one but I have very very little hope we’ll actually win. And it wouldn’t surprise me if the trio of terribleness threw the challenge. I’m hoping for two things. 1. Jessie losing her vote at Oak Island. 2. Dan or Sunshine being sent to Oak Island if we lose the challenge. That would guarantee some safety for our foursome. If Jessie completed the challenge and Dan or Sunshine found an idol, and they played multiple advantages at the next tribal... that could spell some serious bad luck for us.

So I got 7 points in the last challenge. I'm honestly pretty happy with that because these challenges are my weak suit. I'm hoping we did well enough as a team to win the challenge, but we will never know if the other tribe is going to decide to put effort into the challenge or not.

ok i like Dylan Coco Chips talked to Heather Stephen a little Evan I like how he came forth at last minute on challenge. I am trying to figure 4 other people I would love to be in alliance with I know CoCO and Dylan 2 more is hard choice because I like many. Livingston is way to distant for me to ever work with to evasive not enough chat. If we lose this round I would vote Livingston for my own reason not sociable enough in chats to distant and did not try hard like other in scavenger hunt I was pissed about his non performance of trying like rest of us did

LMAO John is gone too now. That’s everyone I knew on the other tribe so. Yikes. Kinda wanna,,,, pull a Palau 😳 Also I’m crying at me just restating that Stephen wanted to sit out & he got offended. Like sister I’m just statin what’s the problem Anyway I think we’re losing this comp bc ppl be gettin low scores. glo insisted on playin & Eric somehow got a 7 so. Yikes I’m such a bitch in confessionals LMAO this is my outlet okay all of these people are wonderful okay.

I have a bad feeling this is gonna be the challenge to take us down. Just a gut feeling.

WHAT IS HAPPENING HOW ARE WE STILL WINNING WTF IS GOIN ON OVER THERE

WHAT IS HAPPENING OVER THERE IM FUCKING DYINGGGGGGGG not only was it the 3-3 tie vote, they also insisted on an early tribal I’m fucking crying I’m fuckin-

Woohoo that alliance is broken and Dan is pretty much my sheeple. In my four I’d trust Kyle the least. Teehee. Kyle is a cool guy and enjoyable to talk to, and that’s exactly why he must leave. I gotta worry about the other tribe at this point, and Sunshine.

Another successful vote! The plan was to split between Jessie and Dan in case one of them had an idol. Neither played an idol and in the revote we voted off Jessie for being too close to Sunshine. Everything worked out perfectly. I’m guessing there’s going to be a swap now. We’re down to 16 players. And unfortunately there’s still 10 members of the other tribe left. The swap is either going to be into two tribes of 8, or three tribes 5 with one person going to Oak Island. I think I would almost prefer two tribes of 8, as long as I’m not swapped into a tribe with Dan and Sunshine. I still have the extra vote so if we are swapped, I’d love to be swapped with Kyle, Mac and Darcy onto a tribe and have a 4-4 tie. So I can play my extra vote and we can take control of that tribe. But we’ll see. I think the biggest thing I need to do during the swap is form some strong bonds quickly. I don’t know that any of this tribe can make the end of the game if we can’t work our way into the other tribes alliances.

So we win the 4th challenge in a row and not even two seconds later the other tribe has tribal and has a tie vote. Honestly what is going on here!?

Dan is I think new to this game. Dan is loyal to me which he’s expressed and I’d like to keep him around as a third vote. Having an extra vote in my back pocket is kinda a flex ngl, as long as he’s not in other peoples back pockets. That just makes Dan a hoe. In other news. A swap is coming and I just wanna win a challenge. But we are going into the swap 10-6 so lmao Goodluck our tribe.

I’m actually kinda hoping for swap? it would be good for my game to actually go to tribal and have early gameplay, and if my og tribe has majority it should make it an easy vote, and would help solidify my alliances with these guys. Of course, I could also be swap screwed, so it might go badly. Who knows. 

Swap or Challenge? Please Challenge, im too busy tomorrow to meet new people

Literally everyone I was like “I really want to work with blank” about are on the other tribes. Ugh. Like, I’m still sticking with the ogs, and at least I’m not poor Livingston, but its still unfortunate I won’t have that time with people like Heather, Glo, or Chips. A lot can happen on seperate tribes, they might come to merge not so thrilled to see me.

Well we did it. We finally swapped. Three people got swapped into a 4 v 1 situation. And guess who was one of those three? That’s right! It’s me! On the plus side almost immediately after the swapped Heather came to me asking if I was the one who was Harley Quinn in the music video challenge. Apparently she really wanted to meet me and hoped I didn’t get voted out. So I have that going for me right now. My biggest hope right now is that we win this challenge and I don’t have to worry about being voted out at all.

I turn on skype again, and find out I'm in this random ass island chat. Fast forward a minute and then I realize I'm on exile island with an opportunity to earn a "reward". The word "reward" was what almost convinced me not to play, because it's not nearly as enticing as "advantage". Also, I didn't even know what the challenge was! C'mon man! However, in survivor, you want as much power as you can possibly obtain. Right now, I have a close relationship with everyone on my old tribe except for livingston, and essentially I was running the show despite no one knowing it. Considering the amount of control I did have, and the fact that there's a chance I could get caught and become a threat, I decided to take the chance.

Yooo I got a special idol on exile! One of my hopes of playing survivor online was to find a hidden immunity idol, because the amount of power it can give someone, is priceless. It can be the difference between winning and losing. With this idol, it functions almost like a regular immunity idol, but I need to walk into tribal council with it around my neck and play it that night. However, that will certainly not be the only use of this idol, and I will be sure to show you when I'm ready to use it.

[craftymaelyss]

killie is a dangerous, unstable individual that should be avoided at all costs.

Below are links to individual posts however I want to make a large evidence source in one spot. Seein ghow tumblr has a screenshot limit per page/entry, this will be done in parts. There’s over 4 years of evidence here. https://web.archive.org/web/20190411103619/https://www.deviantart.com/craftymaelyss/journal/killie-has-become-even-more-dangerous-722223575 https://web.archive.org/web/20190303072732/https://www.deviantart.com/craftymaelyss/journal/killie-is-still-going-after-people-600021523 https://web.archive.org/web/20190303095040/https://www.deviantart.com/craftymaelyss/journal/killie-has-become-even-more-dangerous-722223575 https://craftymaelyss.tumblr.com/post/138266321435/being-harassed-by-an-obsessive-stalker https://craftymaelyss.tumblr.com/post/140324972595/so-apparently-my-business-name-sent-in-a-complaint https://craftymaelyss.tumblr.com/post/132396403360/the-manipulative-liar-that-never-learns https://craftymaelyss.tumblr.com/post/138267884480/a-person-in-need-he-says-that-im-the-one-who https://craftymaelyss.tumblr.com/post/140599880580/mykillie-apperantly-her-massege-dont-needs-do https://craftymaelyss.tumblr.com/post/141967566160/i-have-an-obsessive-stalker-that-wants-to-kill-me https://craftymaelyss.tumblr.com/post/140414610345/killie-fully-admitting-he-tried-to-frame-my?is_related_post=1 https://craftymaelyss.tumblr.com/post/140483974190/so-you-make-a-fake-apology-then-try-to-attack-me?is_related_post=1 For the past 4 years I have been stalked, harassed and threatened by an individual who uses the online alias "killie". 

It went from abusive journals, to stalking, being constantly contacted by his account and the others he made until they were blocked and started sending strangers to harass me after playing victim and escalated to the point where he impersonated my online business, 

harassed my mother on facebook by making a link on his steam account to her profile asking people to harass her about myself, made posts asking people to kill me as well as trying to frame me as a terrorist. 

He found my real name and posted it to a facebook group dedicated to spreading hate and recently went to a group of “hackers”, asking them to hack my DeviantArt account. Below is the hate group post:

You’re probably wondering what started this aggressive, obsessive stalking?

A fan-made Spyro The Dragon comic. 

Not even joking.

The harassment started when an online user created a comic based on the game "Spyro The Dragon" where the main hero was portrayed as evil. Killie didn't like that and started harassing the artist who created the comic and blocked his multiple accounts and the people he sent after the artist until they made a public journal telling everyone to block and ignore killie. 

On this journal, I gave the artist advice on how to report killie and noticed in the comment section killie had replied to every comment asking users to help him hack the artist's account and delete the comic. 

Shortly after I received a private message from killie who I had never contacted before and he was asking me to hack the artist's DeviantArt account to delete the comic. I said no and told him that people could draw whatever they wanted. 

Later I received a notification that killie had made a public journal listing myself and others as idiots. Myself and the others he listed called him out on it and he later changed it to "being bullied" and started talking about how we were attacking him for no reason and again added links to our profiles which again notified us.After being called out, he deleted it and made a new journal with the same content and again it was reported. 

At this point, I started taking and saving screenshots as well as webpages. He then went to other websites(mainly tumblr) and started making posts about how he was being bullied "by idiots" and manipulated random strangers into believing that I was attacking him for no reason. 

These people then contacted me through DeviantArt and accused me as well as verbally abusing me. I showed these people the screenshots I had collected and saved and they told me what killie had told them. I asked for screenshots and they provided them, then called killie out for lying. He deleted his tumblr and made a new one and started posting more bullying posts. 

(the screenshots of the terrorist plot and many you see are ones sent in from people killie manipulated but after seeing the screenshot evidence, they were quick to realise he was using them to further hurt others)

He began repeating and treating the whole thing like a game and blocking didn't work. People who saw these would approach me and again I would ask for screenshots before reporting these accounts. The abuse continued and I made public journals with screenshots that made killie stop approaching me on DeviantArt for a while, showing what he was doing and asking people that if he approached them to provide screenshots as evidence, which resulted in more people showing me posts of what killie was saying and doing that was maliciously aimed towards myself and asking random strangers to hack my DeviantArt account.

I then received a contact message from killie through Skype saying he was sorry and that he would stop but was being very vague. I told him I would give him a chance if he left myself and my friends alone. He didn't give an answer right away and before I agreed, someone notified me of a post he made on another website while talking to me on Skype. I called him out on it and ended up blocking him.

(Warning, the following is a very large screenshot and a long conversation, you may have to zoom in or open it separately. If there are issues I will place it in several separate shots)

He then went to tumblr and started posting death threats and asking where he could find assassins who would kill for free. 

He deleted these posts once he realised I was taking screenshots and I only managed to get the post talking about assassination. People started sending me screenshots and information if killie posted things that were hostile about myself and one person told me his real name after looking at his Google+ account that he was Dylan Wuyts and that he was in Belgium. 

When he tried to approach me again, I said his real name and that he was in Belgium to him to try and scare him away and leave me alone. After that, my mother received a message on facebook from "Robert Manual" accusing me of stalking and calling myself a bitch. She asked me about it and I told her that he was stalking me and showed her what evidence I had at the time. She replied to his message by telling him to leave me alone and to stop stalking me before blocking him.

(unfortunately we didn’t save the screenshots and she deleted her account, however below is a screenshot of killie posting a link to my mother’s facebook page to get others to harass her about me)

Very soon after that, he changed his steam profile to a link to my mother's facebook page, asking people to demand her to stop me from "stalking" him. I took a screenshot and clicked on the profile he used to contact my mother(he had used the same profile to contact me on facebook which I eventually blocked from the abuse and harassment) and saw a profile that I thought was his sister.

I contacted her and explained what was happening and provided all the evidence I had and begged her to help. After reading it, she said she would talk to Dylan/killie's parents to make him stop and told him he was no longer allowed to use these social websites as he had also harassed other individuals. (tumblr’s limit on screenshots in posts has been hit, so guess this will have to be in parts, then put together in a mega journal) Part 1 (here) Also, these posts are from when it started. When you see the recent ones, you will wonder why his family knowingly lets this happen, despite him saying he wants to kill them.

[charlie-artlie]

hhhhhggrrrmmhhhgggggggg aaaaaaa ok i got on in this white hell box to start slamming rvb s15 but that ep10 was so good!!!!!!! click below to watch me go back and forth on this topic for like 5or10 paragraphs lmao!!!!!!!!!

ok so lemme start with things i like which 

1). UHG??? that beach scene!!!!!!! perfect amazing perfection everything ive ever wanted???!!!!????!!!! they held hands im literally crying my hands were over my face the whole time like!!!!!!! AAAAAA so that was great

2). i........ like temple. even tho i got spoiled about him being a villain  i still thought the reveal was good and i have such a soft spot for smarmy yandere style “im gonna emotionally torture u :)” villains. it also probably doesnt help that i love and miss church so hes a fun stand in on that front AS WELL AS a stand in as tuckers new evil boyfriend now that felix is a pancake

2.5). unrelated but did we get confirm on felix being dead??? he aint dead til i see a body jussaiyin...

3). i have mixed feelings on church coming back that ill get into but church is maybe my favorite character so ultimately i view that as a plus?

4). i really put this one off cuz i was still reeling over this newest episode but all the potential grif development (and by extension red team development as a whole) that looks like its gonna happen this season has got me bittin the pillow like i kid u not im on the edge of my seat fam

ok but like. now onto the real shit. (THIS GOT SO LONG SHIT)

the one thing that is really REALLY holding me back from fully enjoying this season is wanting to know what the crews fuckin intentions are with this show. like. im gonna go ahead and put my hat on the fuckin table or whatever but season 13 was an ending. it was  good fucking ending too (and i know someones gonna go back and pull up receipts of me a year or so ago begging for a continuation season after s13 ended but dont do that pls) and to continue after an ending like that with a time skip like that makes this whole season feel like an epilogue to me? like a clean up? like there were some loose ends were tying up.

like. if theyre serious about this season and about ALL these new characters theyre bringing up then were looking at an arc here. like its gonna have to be to bring this to a proper close after all this extra shit?? they cant comfortably bring this to a close in one season

like what are they planning????whats the point of all this????

i honestly wouldn’t even  be so bent out of shape about it all, like it wouldn’t seem like such a stretch but the fact that we’re introduced to this season with dylan, who is also, largely, framed as a main character this season. who is. a new character. :/

like i get the narrative tool of using a reporter to drag your characters out of retirement for “one last job” (again, kinda framing it to be one season which worries me!) but whyyyyyy do we have to go through all this stuff with dylan and jax??????? like W H Y do we have to go through the same relationship development we’ve seen like three times already?????? jax is characteristically indistinguishable from caboose, so like???? weve seen this before!! the cold cynical “i dont need friends im just doing my job” person getting frustrated by having to deal with the idiot heart-of-gold tagalong who refuses to hate them no matter how mean or terrible they are like?? we saw it with church and caboose. we saw it later with wash and caboose. we saw it with church and caboose againnnnnnnn. we even kinda saw it with tucker and palomo!!!!! like whats the point of repeating this scene again and again!!!! we get it cynical mean assholes deserve unconditional love too i guess!!!!

like i just cant really get into it. and i dont even really mind dylan like i like her a lot more than i initially thought i would but i already can pretty much see the direction her character arch is going so im just sorta like shrug. shes gonna push jax until he leaves and then...........only then..........will she learn how much she should have valued his unconditional love.................even if he annoyed her and they didnt get along objectively in any way shape or form. but since he likes her then its her job to reciprocate even if she doesnt get anything out of the relationship at all. also she shot him. but whatever their friendship is beautiful (didnt know i had this much salt over this particular subject lmao whoops)

ok so narratively i only see two reasons to do this and im not crazy about either

1). theyre building up to draw some parallels between dylan and like wash or church or s/t but again i dont see the reasoning like why is this season framed around teacher dylan an important lesson about friendship you brought the show back from the jaws or death to give my a character arc for a new character????

2). this its more significant than it seems (i.e. theyre not who we think they are, i mean, its pretty suspicious we only have jax’s stage name rn) like theyre more significant players than we’ve been led to believe

(((also also im with grif on the whole bringing church back thing lmao. like WE DID THIS ALREADY??? there were a lot of AI why dont we ever go on an epic quest to save any of my other favs like oh idk TEX?????????!!!!!!!!!???????)))

but really tho my real and true problem is that i cant tell why theyre still making episodes. is it because theres still a story here that needs to be told or just because they can. and i know my hangup with this mostly stems from one interview i saw after s13 ended with miles and burnie where burnie pretty much said “yea if i had it my way uh i would end it here but hey it is what it is :/” and that just sorta struck a cord with me. maybe because he was a writer and one of the original people who created it i was sorta uncomfortable with taking the show places he didnt want to take it (and i could be TOTALLY off base with this assessment!!!! like i dont know how burnie really feels about this show rn he could be totally digging the new stuff this is just a personal things thats a hangup in just my own head!!!!)

ok so i think i covered pretty much everything i needed to say about this season so far if you actually read this far thanks if u gave up and skipped to the end then i have one last food for thought:

im gonna be the huge stick in the mud who says it: people are putting way too much faith in a company that is still using donut to make cheap gay jokes by actually thinking grimmons is going to become canon and im sorry that youre going to be disappointed. what we are going to get is a unsatisfying reunion and subsequent make up a la church and tucker in s12 and thats it.

thats not what i want to happen thats what i believe will happen. i am FULLY prepared to eat my own hat if im wrong. you may consider this text post legally binding

[travellers-survivor-old-west]

Episode 7: “The coin flip gods decided Xander would be leaving us tonight”- Chloe

Everyone drop your..................... spare change we have a decision to make - Someone on the losing tribe, probably.

jeezzzzzz this round is fucking frustrating. so last minute last round my alliance flipped to keaton which was WONDERFUL!!! I was having a hard time talking to him and I'm glad it's Vi and Xander still here. the concering thing tho is someone told vi to do keaton so like.....someone tryna scoop up that good good number huh? this auction though....FUCK THIS. so it started off fine. nobody snatched the first thing bc it was useless. but then the second item hehe I grabbed it bc I wanted to throw to keep ashley safe + wanted to know what it was. so i was like ok cool love it. but then for some reason another item got posted after the time the post said the challenge would be running.....which was not fair flkjfl and i didnt see it cause i was like cool i can sleep now :) and then it's the fuckin most powerful thing in the game :)))) love that for me lol. and someone on that tribe fucked it up. i literally would've fuckin spent all the money for it if I'd known the auction was gonna go past the time the hosts said rip so that threw a wrench in everything and now i am a sad sad cowboy :'( next day i snatched the first item to end the auction so that the power hungry snakes in my alliance didnt get all the good stuff. so even tho i got nothing of value, i DID get assurance that only one thing is out there that I need to be worried about. :))) hehe :))) and it was REALLY EASY to play off like xander took them both tbh. he was typing in the chat the whole time lmao. the only problem is that chloe eve and isaac are actually smart and they might know it was me but like i rlly put in that fake nancy drew work and was like HELLO DID U BUY THOSE THINGS ? I even asked xander if he got either of the items hehe. im just sittin here with my two lame-ass packages <333333 but i have a really bad feeling about the other tribe. Ashley was on a work trip all week and I know her and her fuckery and her inability to talk to boring men and her tribe has way way too many of them. jared/sammy have the power on that tribe if they scoop dylan and goat nick or bro down with aidan. so it's bad news I think. I'm gonna be pissed at them if they get her out (and i swear to god if jared is doing it just to break up me and her so I'm closer to him he has another thing coming!!!!!!!!! :) ) i wanted to be loyal to jared and ashley, but if he gets her out before I even have a chance to play with her, im gonna be fuckin bitter!!!!!!!! and who knows what I'll do then :)

Well rip us again. I’m slightly screwed? Maybe. I did get 2nd highest score so hopefully the others keep that in consideration considering Owen, Xander and eve got lower than 50 points. I’m pissed Bc Chloe and I both tried hard to carry the team. We were 200 points under. That’s more than either one of us got. Every one else didnt do an entire section. One of them only did a couple pictures, another only did a couple videos. Rip I want to die.

BIIIIITCH. Shit has hit the fan and I finally feel like we're playing a game here. Last tribal was intense but it brought back that feeling as to why I play these things so I was kind of into it. Overall the scrambling in the last few hours showed a lot of people's hand and I think that was one valuable thing that came out of the last vote out (in addition to Sammy's vote out). Apparently the alleged vote was Ashley, which Jared told me rather late, and I didn't feel clued in on that AND I was a fan of Ashley. She was one of the only people here from my second tribe and she talked to me more than a majority of the tribe making me realize that the Malakoff OGs might have formed a voting block - Pat might possibly be involved. Apparently it was a push on behalf of Pat but I did use my vote steal and try to push things in order to save Ashley and push it onto another target. She really wanted Jared but I do feel like I have a stronger relationship with him and the ability to reconcile things further which is why I tried to deviate the target to Sammy. Plus in all of the ambiguity and the fact that my name was going around (as Ashley as a decoy to save herself *insert eye roll*) I felt the need to use the vote steal I secured on the rails. Regardless of how things played out at the end of the day I had no idea what the chaotic twink [Dylan] was going to do and in the event of a 3-3-1 tie I doubt Jared was saving me over Sammy. Weren't they butt buddies in a Tumblr Survivor or something? Like it just wasn't realistic... and I don't feel like I leveraged it poorly at all. Better than going home with something in my pocket like last time. Plus the studio art major's reaction in their exit interview only helped prove my point that they were the best person to go. Plus I felt as if the studio art major in question has the type of fun but lowkey personality that allows people to go deep and as such an extroverted loud ass bitch those players tend to be the ones on my radar. We worked hard, we persevered and won immunity. Pat worked his ass off in the fucking challenge because he knew he made a fucking mistake writing my name down but he's trying to be cordial. Honestly I think a lot of people are biding their time until merge and I have a sneaking suspicion I might be a person of interest when this merge comes. WHY? Well that challenge was CLEARLY thrown and the people who seemed to be left out of the loop were the ones from my original tribe. I'm pretty sure that's a fucking act of war in Ancient Greece. Nick (my number one ally atm I love you Nick) pointed that shit out immediately and made me run to check the results which left me shook. I tried to bring it up to Jared who played it off... another kind of red flag. My priority right now is to strengthen relationships heading into a potential merge and making sure they're on good footing with me even though the last thing that's happening is a loyal Malakoff 3.0. I'm not even going to delude myself with the fucking thought. Despite having Nick and I guess Ashley, I do feel very alone in this game. Most games I succeed in I have a partner in crime so I'm going to adapt and see how I can take on the merge. I really want Nick to know I trust him as much as I do and I hope that whoever survives of Chloe and Vi is excited to see us. That's if the merge is next and you're not playing with us... But I also hope that both Chloe and Vi survive this round but the break up of the challenge doesn't look good. Is there a chance they just fucking suck?

Being back at tribal is fucking hell. At this point just give us merge I stg id be more likely to be immune then. Honestly it feels like most of my tribe put ZERO FUCKING EFFORT into this challenge and I’m beyond angry about it they’re all fucking bastards and I’ll vote every single one of them out for doing this to me.

Thoughts on being at tribal - the coin flippers are staying strong and yet again we flipped a coin to see who goes home between Vi and Xander. This time there’s no Keaton to fuck things around so I’m hoping it stays this straight forward and there’s no genuine last minute scrambles. I don’t think anyone from the group has told Vi or Xander yet who the vote is but the coin flip gods decided Xander would be leaving us tonight. I just wanna fucking sleep. So yea no valid reason for voting Xander tonight other than it was down to a coin flip. Either way I’d be voting Xander and Vi out at merge anyway.

M E R G E U S 

I’m stupid and forgot to do this so I’m doing it from the bathroom at work pls don’t strike me I’ll give you detail when I get off sjhdjddh

Spoiler Alert: He never did send us details when he got off work.....

Hey, this tribe fucking sucks. they never talk about anything or want to do much. Like i had to beg people to do the call. and force that to happen. and I had to force a vote talk out of people.... Thats not my style of gameplay. I hate that im forced to do that. and just want out of this tribe ASAP. IM just hoping if i do survive and make it to merge. that my clever "talking" skills have earned me some credit in this tribe. where I have some allies. I do want to make it far and not just flop in this game. Especially when no one really knows me here and they can't target me because im in a duo with someone on the cast. @every other game i play. *glares at jess* 

Also Xander...

Part 2 electric boogaloo I really just want Alyssa to expose me. Like is that so hard. Also i forgot to mention in my last confessional that Jess had a booty call and they left their top there. 

IS IT MY TIME TO GO??????

Last round was pretty wild. I really did NOT want Sammy to go but unfortunately my hands were tied and he was with jared and pat. I kind of pushed for jared last round a little too much and Aidans ass told jared and he confronted me about it. I think i did a pretty good job at explaining why and basically it was like we both kind of went for eachother last round but now no one will think we are working together. My hope is that aidan and nick will be loyal and continue to work with me but i have a feeling jared is stilll trying to work on aidan and aidans ass is falling for it. Merge is probably coming up and im a little scared about that but if nick and aidan dont flop I think we can make it far.

So last round I played like peepee poopoo I should've just listened to Sammy like I told myself I would at the beginning of the round and voted Aidan... but the second I detect any shadiness even in a F2 or F3 person that's when the meltdown comes... it was like the Bryce situation all over again Not to mention Aidan two-timed me! But luckily it is still early enough in the game to recover from this, and I still have the high noon... I just need to hang onto that no matter what. So this round I centered back in on my round one gameplan, Aidan lost my trust and Dylan earned his 3rd strike with me by not having my back in the tribe chat. I've been bonding with NickG, and I made a deal with Ashley so I'm hoping that new doors will open for me on this tribe. With that being said, we won the challenge and honestly I couldn't care less about a merge any more, the farther away it is the better to be honest- I can have a 50/50 shot at making it one round further every time with tribal immunity. Another note, non-zero odds that Owen threw the challenge for me? We'll see.

Idk what day exactly the video title is specific of when I’m speaking from.

More Pat....

[survivorelara]

Episode #10: “Im not his slave im his partner.” -Andrea

https://youtu.be/StsZDwB6I6E https://youtu.be/_LKpUMGO2jY

I just feel.. really good? I think anyways. I’ve been talking to Ci’ere a lot today and I’m realising that I don’t even try to have a social game, I just just be good at talking to people??? Idk. But yeah it’s mostly good.. I have a lot of people I want to go far with which means I’m gonna have to let everyone else control the vote so I don’t look like I’m betraying people maybe?? Or I can just do what’s best for me , but I don’t need to worry about that yet I’ve still got og auva to get rid of :)

Holy wow. Final 9. I made the halfway mark. That's legit scary and I feel like throwing up because I rarely make it this far. I think that I have been in the good graces of everyone... seeing that I am one of the 2 people who still have 0 votes against me. Like my social game is doing that well and as conceited as this may sound- I think that I have a good shot at winning this whole show! But I still have to vote out 6 or 7 more people. Still not sure how this end game will play out, but it is coming and it is coming like a bullet train.

Well, it's the F9, and I didn't win that challenge like I'd hoped. I'm unsure if there was an idol clue involved or not. I'm hopeful not, but we'll see. Regardless not good for me because I was hoping Drew H would go next.

I think my ideal target this round is Drew T. Just because he threw my name out last time and it was frustrating to heck to hear that.

Beyond that I feel like I'm running out of players I could beat at the end, but maybe I'm underselling myself, and I'm playing a great game. I'm playing in the middle at the moment, which either nobody's aware of that, or everyone is and they either don't care or are planning my demise as we speak...

Let's go find out then shall we! :D

death. okno but like idek whats goin on. I am tight w just about everyone. With my cool new no lying stage theres more confrontation but i like... still dont think im playing a poor game idk i could be fuck I just know that in 6 days Sam and I hit 1 year of GP. He was my closest ally there and hes turning into it here. I adore Loris, don't think I could vote him out, but Sam just is so similar to me strategy wise and we just click its disgusting. However, when I make my cutesy post talking about how amazing GP is and my #1 ally, we'll be in f7. No gucci. I dont wanna get voted out for him again. Im not his slave im his partner.

Well, I'm playing a dangerous game, and tonight I can totally see it being me, nobody's giving me any warning at the moment though, so I'm still hopeful that I'm going unnoticed.

I still haven't found that damn idol which I'm definitely gonna want in the near future so that I can make a couple more bolder moves.

I think my ideal F2 is Emma, and my ideal F3 is with one of Loris, Sam, or Ci'ere, which I can think of some valid points against/with all of them. The one I'm less sure of as a 3rd would be Ci'ere, but we'll see how the game shakes down, or if I even make it that far to think about it.

Ideally it's Drew T that goes this round, and then it's Andrea or Drew H next, and the other one comes after that. But again those ideal circumstances, who knows if it'll genuinely work out that way, or if I'll even be around long enough to see anything past this tribal. But I'm making plans, thinking about who's on the jury, what I have to do to get there, it's just a matter of... GETTING there.

this tribal is sad. that’s all. I don’t feel I have much else to say zzz :(

I hate being busy everyone is being too quit :(

Me at F11: Guys we need to vote out Emma, it's the right move!

Drew T.: I don't trust Ci'ere, we can't do a plan that banks on him being honest with us after last time. (Dylan leaves) Me at F10: Guys it HAS to be Andrea, even if we're forcing rocks, like let's fuckin go and play this game Roxy: I actually already voted for John (John leaves) Roxy at F9: I just don't think Kori is the right move, if it's not our call to make we're playing this game wrong YOU'RE GODDAMN RIGHT WE'RE PLAYING THIS GAME WRONG, WE'VE BEEN PLAYING IT WRONG ALL SEASON BECAUSE YOU WON'T PLAY BALL AND TAKE A SWING, AND THINK IT'S BETTER TO VOTE OUT PEOPLE WHO ARE WILLING AND PROVEN TO WORK WITH US BUT NOW THIS IS WHERE WE ARE AND THERE IS ONE PATH TO MAJORITY AND IT'S ALREADY ROCKY AS FUCK SO NOW IS NOT THE TIME FOR YOUR RIDICULOUS DOUBT. THAT TIME WAS FIVE DAYS AGO. WE'RE HERE NOW. I'm pretty sure it's gonna fail again and I"m pretty sure it's because of the people I'm with. I really should've aligned with Logan and Odd…

bruh this has been such a hectic round. basically im in the complete middle spot as a swing, and it seemed like it was a revati 4 against the auvas and ciere with me smack dab in the middle. but the thing is, I have alliances with everybody now, so I was at a complete loss on what I was going to do. I don't want drew t gone, but I also didnt want kori gone yet either, who the drews were proposing as a vote. The tricky thing is, after results last night kori came to me with a suggestion to vote andrea out, which made me know even more that the "revati 4" aren't this unbreakable tightly knit crew. so it really begs the question for me, what group of people will want to go to the end with me, and what group of people only want me around until like f6 or something

the best part is, I have a f3 alliance right now with loris and andrea, and 2 more secret f2 deals with roxy and kori, who nobody else in the game is aware of. it makes it that much more entertaining when loris and roxy don't trust one another, and it makes me the perfect middle man between these different "sides." then of course there is the obvious wanting to go to the end with drew t, but im not sure yet if I want to do that or not. I love the dude to pieces, but im not sure if its best for my game to stick with him long term or not. but for now, he trusts me wholeheartedly, and I wanted to repay him by working my ass off to save him this vote, since I have no intention of turning on the revatis since I know for a fact they aren't a tight group

so then comes this crazy idea that pops up in my head: why not get rid of ci'ere? he's lied to me once already, and he's in the most "disposable" position for me since I know for a fact right now I don't plan on going very far with him. because I know he'll just lie to me again if he has to. so ive been going to everyone and tryna convince them that drew going now wouldn't be as beneficial, seeing as he's a huge public target right now, and no one really "needs" ci'ere at this point.

so im hoping this works out, ci'ere leaving not only allows this whole auva vs revati thing to continue or whatever and let me stay in the middle, but it also allows me to hide behind people such as kori and the drews who I feel will always be targeted over me as long as they are in the game. ive worked my ass off, and so far I think it's paying off in the sense that im pretty well connected with everyone. but it also means I have to blindside that many more people to get myself to the end

theres also the possibility of the drews tryna use this vote change as a way to eliminate kori, which yeah would suck, and esp since ciere will know I went after him, but can he blame me? he lied to me already lol. and I mean, everyone other than ci'ere will still be aware that I tried to do what was best for them, like saving drew to the auva side, or not voting kori and voting in the minority with the revati side, so either way if this doesn't pan out how I want, I should really only have one person mad at me, and that one person isn't near as connected to people in this game as I am. so come at me bruh

god this has been such a stressful tribal, but whether I vote in the majority this time or not, if everything pans out the way I hope it will, i'll still have the trust of everyone I need in this game to still be able to keep my f2/3 deals I have so far

I will send a confessional AFTER THIS VOTE JESUS CHRISTUSUS LET ME LIVE HALLELUJAH

Yup, Kori pretty much just confirmed that he’s willing to go to the end with me. At the same time, Drew H. said that at least we know we can work together. From being at the bottom to being in a swing position right in the middle. I’m an important vote for both sides so this is stellar! It would seem that Drew T. thinks he can get Sam to flip this round btw. We’ll see if he can work his magic, but Sam specifically said he didn’t want Drew T. at the end because he’d win and he trusts me way more.

Omg, just when I felt like giving up in the codebreaker challenge I decided to keep pushing myself to find the page because I want a W & I ended up finding it! I believe I was the first person to get to the puzzle, but I’m not exactly sure because it says someone already complete it? I took longer than I had hoped on the puzzle portion & as soon as I finished Kori was being Kori. It seemed like he was trying to flex that he was finished so he might’ve beaten me ugh.

Anyway, Kori got exposed for lying to Auva 2.0 about his vote & all the heat is on him which is great! I’m kicking him under that bus just a bit to hopefully keep that target there.

Sam is telling Auva 2.0 that he wants to flip this round. Now let’s see if he goes through with that.

So I've been talking with Roxy, and it seems just about a sure thing that I'll be getting votes tonight. Loris was apparently putting my name UTB, and he decided to call me the mastermind for the John vote. WHEN I DIDN'T EVEN WANT JOHN GONE!

But sure let's see how this mess goes, I'm gonna take advantage where I can and do what I have to to come out unscathed.

Drew T is voted out 5-2-2.

[stickyrunawayangelsworld]

Monday, 4:51 am

my best friend on the whole wide planet ruined her life, and now she wants me to ruin mine. you see, she grew up living with her controlling and abusive grandparents. parents were drug addicts, never gave a shit. she turned 18 in march of 2016, had a beautiful daughter in april. moved out of their house in may or june. left all her shit (by force). she moved in with her mom, which didn't work out too well. some time in june or july i had to get her and all the shit we could get quickly and leave. she stayed at my sisters for a while. everyone in my family told her that she could stay with any of us, permanently. my nana and papa already had two teenagers (18 and 16), but they didnt have a spare room. my sister was 7 months pregnant and newly wed, they have their own place which is two bath and four bed. one room i was living in, the nursery was in the back by their room, and the room they were ready to make hers was right beside mine. my parents with three kids but only one living at home (my brother, 16) (i moved out in june due to a very bad fight with my dad which ended in me in the icu, and my sister is 24 so) had two spare rooms, one which was already being made into a nursery for their soon to be grandchild, the other completely empty since i left. however, she wanted to move to texas to go live with her long distance boyfriend she had never met. so, in august, she moved states to be with an abusive asshole. there were signs he was definitely abusive before they were even dating, and she ignored them all because he also did nice things. he bought her and willow gifts and mailed them. he bought promise rings. he sent her his jackets so she could wear them, he sent her letters, tagged her in memes, etc. he also called her fat. (not the worst thing to others, but she's been suffering with eating disorders since she was a child, and she was 8 months pregnant at the time.) he also triggered her ptsd. he would belittle her, push her around, and manipulate her into doing things she didn't want to do. every fight he would call her a bitch, irrational, overreacting. she has multiple disorders where it's hard to tell if she is overreacting or being irrational. he would leave her on read during a panic attack. actually i can't think of a single time he talked to her when she was freaking out. he always said it was stupid and that "she'd calm down eventually". anyways. so she moves down there. its good for maybe two or three weeks. after that it was non stop with the fighting. "Toriy he's such a dick" "i hate it here, i don't know anyone and the city gives me anxiety" (san antonio is like 300 miles, and she's from a small ass town) "Toriy please call me" "____ did x, y, z today and I haven't eaten in three days" at first it was shit that i wasn't surprised by. he called her fat, he ignored her during a panic attack, he put his friends before her. then christmas week happened. it started put early in the week. he was mad because something that happened at work or whatever, and he was (as usual) taking it out on her. she didn't say anything, just kinda took it. the next few days were pretty similar. his family celebrated christmas on christmas eve, and she didn't know hardly any of them. he has a pretty large family. she only knew his mom, dad, sister, brother, and other brother. she was so anxious and she spent half the night in the bathroom crying. not so shockingly, he ignored her existence the whole time. that night when they got home, was the worst. he broke up with her, sent her several messages calling her a shitty mom (lemme just tell you, she is an AMAZING mom. also lemme just tell you one of the "reasons" he used for her being a shitty mom was that she washes her childs bottles????), he accused her of lying about being raped, he said so much shit. christmas day, at two something in the morning, he got physical. the baby was crying and my friend could not handle it. she asked the dude to watch her for a second so she could go to the bathroom and wash her face and calm down. he started screaming at my friend, slammed the baby's head (she was 8 months old at the time) into the metal bed frame, kicked my friend in the stomach and the legs, and punched her a few times. i can't even begin to tell you how bad the phone call i got that night was. three months later, and he hasn't been physical since, but he hasn't changed anything at all. tonight he got in a fight with her because his parents took her to get chinese while he was at work but they wouldn't bring him whattaburger. he got home, said "fuck you" to her, and left. shes spent the whole night having panic attacks and blacking out. i haven't heard from her in three hours and the last thing she said to me was "im going to hurt myself". the other day she asked me to move there. if me her and him can get a place together. i have spent the last eleven days doing nothing but mentally cussing her out. (excluding friday night / saturday morning bc BOI) Fuck you, ____. I hate boys. I hate loud and aggressive boys. I hate boys who think the world owes them something. I hate boys who have the audacity to think that triggering someone's PTSD is fucking funny. I would rather go live with my fucking dad. At least then someone (my mom) would have the balls to say something. Fuck you, ____. Fuck you for letting this boy fuck up your mental stability that you and I worked SO FUCKING HARD on leveling out. Fuck you for letting him put his hands on you and your child. Fuck you, ____. Fuck you for making me feel like shit because I want to hang out with friends. Fuck you for begging me to move there because you "need" me. Fuck you for moving there in the first place. I told you he was abusive. My mum, the lady who literally has been married to an abusive ASSHOLE for almost 30 years, told you that him "being a dick" was the start of abuse. Literally you're so fucking smart. Why the fuck. Fuck you, ____ for even THINKING of asking me to get a place with a guy who calls me a crackwhore because "her reaction is funny", jokes about raping girls, and is physically abusive to you. Fuck you, ____ for telling me that if he does some shit while I'm down there visiting you for your birthday to not hurt him. I will hurt him. I will stab him in the face and I will not apologize for it. Fuck you. Fuck you for expecting me to move away from my family and friends and my boyfriend to live with a guy who abuses my best friend and makes me physically ill every time I talk to him. I get it, ____. You love him, or whatever. I cannot and I will not put myself in that situation again. I got away from my rapist and my abusive dad and Andrew and Dylan and I will not put myself anywhere near that kind of situation again. i couldn't leave here even if i fucking wanted to. the last time i was over two hours away my dad got physical with my mum. he won't go near her or Justin if im close. i cant risk that. (the only time he's ever gotten physical w my mum I threw a knife at him and the only reason it didn't hit him was bc my mum pushed him through the fucking door to protect him. i guess a broken arm full of glass shards is a better story than "14 year old kills her father" huh?) (also little brother is basically my child considering my dads an alcoholic and my mum worked 24/7 when i was kid so guess who grew up literally raising a kid two years younger than her??? hahahahahah me.) i get it. all your friends and family you could easily leave behind. i cant leave my mum and brother like that. i can't leave Xander at all ever. if my bestfriend kills himself while im in another state because his dad died and he lost both his parents, youre going to find me bled out on the bathroom floor. i get that you miss me, but i can't fuck up my schooling or my therapy and i can't just whimsically move like you did. i fucking cant. fuck you for thinking i can.

[survivorelara]

Episode #3: “This tribe can literally suck my left nut.” - Toby

Well after goofing my confessional days (sorry hosts who have to figure that one out.) I got an alliance chat together so that we can communicate without goofing up the challenge the only downside is that we haven't started yet due to nobody being on. (The sucky thing of people having different timezones.)

I'm hoping we can pull another win out of this challenge, I'm trying to just keep things casual overall, I can't exactly start making big moves or anything out of the gate. (Making this 4-man alliance is as big as it's gonna get for now.)

Just gotta stay low, do my part in challenges, and work social magic on people... ew did I really try to tell myself that I have social magic?

I feel like a loser. Even though I was saved. I can be stubborn sometimes and it makes me look bad. I hate that.

ok I started writing this yesterday.... and then forgot to send it... anyways hi this games going pretty good still? we havent gone to tribal and i really think I have some good allies on my tribe. also legacy woo!!!! I’m a bit overwhelmed with work irl but as always I’m going to ignore it

RoxyToday at 3:54 PM 201 202 203 304 RoxyToday at 3:54 PM 201 202 203 304 RoxyToday at 3:54 PM 201 202 203 304 RoxyToday at 3:54 PM 201 202 203 304 RoxyToday at 3:54 PM 201 202 203 304 RoxyToday at 3:54 PM 201 202 203 304

oh? you want to hear about my master strategy? the one where i vote for odd instead of logan? well, it's actually a really complicated plan that involves: 1. voting early because i was about to go into a really long class that i cant use my phone in 2. that's it.   this is only the FIRST step that leads to me skillfully placing myself in the FTC where i win by a vote of 8-0-0.

Me? Sabotaging a challenge?? For a joint tribal council???

It's more likely than you think.

hi.......... so immunity challenge isn't going too well... half of our 24 hours is up and we're on 67. i mean that's mainly because no one was awake when i was so i really expect everyone to be popping off when im sleeping.... i don't want to go to tribal at all (even less than if it were to just be our tribe going to tribal, despite us having the numbers) because i can see this flipping on us somehow... or an idol being played or some shiz. hopefully,,,,,,,,, the other losing tribe if we go really aren't close and don't have our ~incredible~ group morale so the chance of an idol being played is minimised.... i can't really do anything rn except be optimistic and help with immunity but no one is on! ughhhhh if i dont get to play my legacy myself im gonna be s0000000 sad. i think if i go i'll give it to andrea bc i mean i knew louise beforehand but it isn't that fair to give it her because of pre-existing relationships... and andrea's a queen so.

Well we got into the challenge a little late unfortunately. I'm also worried I might be acting more... leaderly than I wanted to coming in, but hopefully I'm garnering more respect and appreciation rather than Oh, he's bossy, or Oh, he's good at this he's a threat, etc etc.

Ideally we wanna avoid that double tribal, but if we go then we'll just hopefully stay 6 strong, because I mean if we don't that means our tribe has a snake, which would suck.

I'm hoping to keep my, overall casually gameplay up, though my social game is lacking a bit, if I talk a bit more with people I think I'll be able to get people on board the Kori train.

We are currently at 420 as a score and I kinda hope it stays that way lawllll I doubt we are going to win but I honestly wouldn't mind some excitement as far as a tribal council will go. If we lose we will have 6 going against whatever other tribe we are againsts 5. So I wouldn't by any means say this is being thrown because we have all been trying however nobody has really been panicking today which is fun. I have really enjoyed talking with Big Z as we have been getting these numbers in together the last few hours, and am hoping if we swap together we will have a good connection going forward. I want to make everyone feel good and comfortable working with me

A combined tribal council... I really don't know how to feel. I'm already set for tribal council tonight, but I just want to know who will be attending alongside us. Like, its just something that is so defeatist and shit, but like if you fuck up on 203 out of all numbers and its just you and one other person... that's concerning.

Like that is my mood when I woke up. We lost at the number 203. Probably the other tribes are in the high 1000s and idk. I'm just begging for the worst at this point.

I take it back. No one cleared 500. That's just pathetic. Truly, it is.

Wow we were trash and now we have to vote someone out if it’s me I’m gonna 🔫🔫🔫🔫 everyone before I leave they’re all getting super soaked

FUCK BITCH! We're going to tribal with the other damn tribe. FUCK! No idea what's going to take place lol. Maybe if I keep a low profile I might be safe. IDK if being under the radar is such a good thing. I haven't played like this in a while. But if something happens I might snap.

THE STREAK CONTINUES

Although tbh I'm getting kind of bored with all of the nothing happening in our tribe so hopefully something interesting or exciting happens soon

https://youtu.be/tIiYdEMW6Dg

No idea what's gonna happen, and based on the vague implications, I think we might be seeing a swap of some kind perhaps of 2 tribes of 7 plus one person exiled.

ALTERNATIVELY It's a live challenge next... both have me mildly stressed but I'm ready to embrace either with open arms.

My patience grows thin with each passing hour that these Zosma's dont answer my one about this vote. At this point, Im gon a throw out a name to my Auva's and call it a day. But then again, Dylan and Odd are too awol to be trusted- thus aggravating me a little more. So if this is my final confessional of the season, better give me that OTTN5 edit.

Hello I hope we don’t swap I wish we went to tribal my tribe sucks and loris is definitely a snake and John is meh and Emma is inactive and kori is scary and I wanna work with zosma or like literally anyone else and I think I forhot someone OH big z he’s iconic but doesn’t talk to me smh

im so lucky lmaoo the rest of the cast can suck my dick also loris is kwl

I think we are probably going to rocks me and drew discussed the idea of getting both sides to vote for each other so when rocks are drawn we’d both be safe but he got worried about the idea of someone flipping and him dying which I understand but idk I’m ready to go balls to the wall

heuse1acToday at 4:05 PM Oh Sam calls me "dude" that might be my vote we're gonna have to see

DANI LIKES TO SING, KWEEN. Toby r e a l l y loves talking about himself. Sam is definitely straight. Unfortunate.

Y e e t h a w 🤠 Toby flopped in the counting challenge that I was ready to go the distance for & I’m not exactly sitting pretty for this joint tribal. I have a feeling that I could be targeted by Auva just because from an outsider’s perspective, I’ve done well in the past few challenges. There’s a lot of speculation that we’re gonna swap after this round, so I want Auva to know that I personally want to work with them in the future. Then together we can lower Revati’s numbers since they’re a bit too stronk right now. Drew T. tells me that himself, Drew H. & Roxy have been more on the “livelier” side as opposed to Odd & Dylan, whom I presume are on the bottom. Apparently Odd argued with the hosts as he was in the middle of a timed challenge & has rubbed some people the wrong way. So...why don’t we just vote out Odd for that reason? All I need to do is convince one person from Auva to flip & we avoid going to rocks, but I’m not shying away from rocks either. Dani said she’d go to rocks if Louise or I were in jeopardy, Roxy doesn’t want to kill me, Drew H. wants to play this game with me, & Drew T. let me know I wasn’t receiving votes. Maybe it isn’t the end of the world?

Toby finally found out that the idol was hidden under 39 & someone had already found it. I decided to stick to my guns by not claiming I have it because that only gives people incentive to vote you out. I have been leading Zosma’s votes which isn’t the position I’d ideally like to be in, but no one else is stepping up to the plate. I make my Odd pitch & say that we should tell the rest of Auva that they should vote out someone disposable to them instead of going to rocks for that person. Zosma & Auva are stubbornly solidifying themselves against the other for this vote, but I believe I could get Drew T. to flip. If not then I guess I’ll be drawing for rocks. :o

I want to make a longer one when I get home but for now im ready to did to rocks and join my boy jack in the robbed premerge with 0 votes club YEEEEEEEEET

Joint tribal is interesting. I think it will just be a tie. We will see.

Odd is voted out 5-3-2.